Today is the beginning of the 4th day. Day 1 was actually so much better than I thought I have just started reading "The Lions Game" by Nelson Demille and it has defnitely helped me keep my mind off it!
On Day 1 I went to bed at 9pm, very early for me! Read for two hours and slept very well. It was quite nice not waking up in the middle of the night and feeling incredibly dehydrated.
Day 2 was much harder, when I got home from work at about 6pm I was immediately bored. I put on the TV and tried to watch but it just didn't feel the same without a glass of wine in my hand. I did some washing and tried to read some more. I went to bed at 8:30pm and carried on reading but at 11pm I was still wide awake. I tossed and turned until about 2am when I think I finally got off to sleep. Yesterday (Day 3) I was so tired all day (even worse than when I am hungover). It makes me think maybe this isn't worth it as I seem to actually function better and sleep better when I can drink. I know that probably sounds stupid but as I feel worse not drinking I have been wondering "what's the point".
BUT, I am going to keep going. Today is day 4 and I am really pleased that I have got this far. I worry about the weekend as I usually drink much more on a Friday and Saturday night as I don't have to get up for work.
Only time will tell!
Thursday 25 November 2010
Monday 22 November 2010
Day 1
OK, so over the weekend I decided to give up drinking and this blog is partially some self-support for me to write down how I am feeling and partially for others if they wish to read it.
I have known I have had an issue with drinking for maybe 2-3 years. I am 24 years old. I originally started drinking when I was about 19 and my then boyfriend hated the fact that I smoked cannabis. I gave up the cannabis and started drinking instead.
When we broke up about two years later I was drinking a minimum of 1 bottle of wine per night. Nowadays I can easily do two bottles with a couple of cans of beer thrown in for good measure. My weight has increased quite dramatically over the last year. I kept a drink diary for just over a month and was consuming on average over 8000 calories per week just through alcohol.
There are a few reasons why I have decided to give up drinking:-
I'd say the hardest part of the day is going to be doing the drive from my office to my house without stopping at my usual off license and picking up some wine. I'm also scared that I am not going to be able to sleep very well as most nights I'll go to bed quite drunk and generally pass out after a couple of minutes.
I have read two books regarding early recovery from alcoholism and one thing I have learnt is that I have to do this one day at a time. I am not going to drink today.
I will probably write on this blog a couple of times a week depending on how I feel. With Christmas coming up and the drinking that comes with it I want to be strong and make this my first "sober" christmas.
Goodbye for today!
I have known I have had an issue with drinking for maybe 2-3 years. I am 24 years old. I originally started drinking when I was about 19 and my then boyfriend hated the fact that I smoked cannabis. I gave up the cannabis and started drinking instead.
When we broke up about two years later I was drinking a minimum of 1 bottle of wine per night. Nowadays I can easily do two bottles with a couple of cans of beer thrown in for good measure. My weight has increased quite dramatically over the last year. I kept a drink diary for just over a month and was consuming on average over 8000 calories per week just through alcohol.
There are a few reasons why I have decided to give up drinking:-
- I'm scared if I don't stop now it will make me very ill in the future
- I don't want to be known as the "one who always get's smashed" out of all my friends
- Financially my habit costs me about £200- £300 a month (this includes going out with friends or staying in with my wine).
- I want to be healthy and maintain a healthy body weight.
I'd say the hardest part of the day is going to be doing the drive from my office to my house without stopping at my usual off license and picking up some wine. I'm also scared that I am not going to be able to sleep very well as most nights I'll go to bed quite drunk and generally pass out after a couple of minutes.
I have read two books regarding early recovery from alcoholism and one thing I have learnt is that I have to do this one day at a time. I am not going to drink today.
I will probably write on this blog a couple of times a week depending on how I feel. With Christmas coming up and the drinking that comes with it I want to be strong and make this my first "sober" christmas.
Goodbye for today!
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